Things has been chaotic at home because of some stupid thinking, and selfish behaviour of certain people. I realise that although i should be understanding towards a sick person i really cannot tolerate that person anymore...I wish i can say this to them, but i think I'll get thrown out. "Don't expect more from me when i have already given my all. There is nothing more that i can offer and help with so just leave me alone and let me spent my holidays in peace."

Right now i am very thankful there is such things as BLOGGING, because i am at my limit and i can vent my frustrations on my blog. I don't really like to spill out the flaws of other people, i am the kind who will try my best to tolerate and bottle things up. I know its unhealthy and that i can explode anytime so a blog exist for me to empty it all in here.

A few days ago I really cannot tolerate my stupid parents anymore. I am really pissed off. They have been thinking that i am slacking at home doing nothing but sit in front of the computer all day long. I however, am cleaning up the home, washing the laundry, washing the dishes that some people are leaving behind... I am practically a maid at home. After my mom cooks, i have to clean the super messy kitchen and wash all the plates. And its not like i get help, no, i have to do it alone... After all the hard work i did, she complaints that i have not done my job. I can't see why she can't see a big difference in the room? messy before clean after??... and the worst is that she claims she has never seen me clean the house before! OMG! is she blind?? OMG! i am so fed up with her and the worst is that my dad is siding her! like what the fuck right! okies i am terribly sorry but i am very pissed off right now... They just love pushing me around! I am already on the verge of screaming at their faces and kicking their bloody ass! GOSH!!!

Then the worst came today, I am fasting and i just clean the house ( i mopped the house using a rag cos there's no mop at home ) and i was super tired and hungry, i felt like i just ran around the reservoir, my mum asked me to go down to buy rice. The super heavy rice! can't my dad go down and buy or my sister who is not fasting... My parents got super angry, they cut my allowance and refuse to cook for me so i have to use my own money to buy food. Some kind of parents huh?? No such parent would refuse to feed their child, heartless bitches... So tomorrow i am going to the market to plan me and my sister's dinner for a week... Luckily I am not broke... Fucking shit right my parents?? its like their brains has turn to shit over the years... ( sorry, very mad )

I realise that the people i hate the most are my family members because they are there to humiliate you, make you suffer so that they can achieve their own comfort, being selfish, treating you like dug and so on... You will never come to hate other people as much as your family. So why do i hate them so much its because they are family and they do those kind of things. To them, they know that you will forgive them no matter how big the crime is.
Then the people that i love the most in the world would be my family as well, why??
Its because for the past 18years, you come to bond and love them. They became a part of you that can never be removed. They are residing and living in you, if a day were to come where they disappear, you will feel a missing part inside. The times that we share in anger, sadness, joy and laughter, becomes an essential memory to carry on living.

Its frustrating right? They play with you emotions, and if i were to draw a chart, my emotions will be like a stock market. going up and down and very unstable...

Why can't they just see the other person next to them suffering? Stand and look, they are trying the very best they can and once in a while, pat their head and say well done. a simple gesture like that can make a person feel deeply content...

Simply Sugarlicious
Aini

Simply Aini
Status: Single
Age: 19
Birthday: 10 July 1990
School: Temasek Polytechnic
Diploma: Baking and Culinary Science
Hobby: Photography, Baking, Cooking, Reading, Watching Movies
BOred?: Watching dramas from Korea, Japan, Taiwan and watching Animation
Idols: Matsumoto Jun, Arashi, Lee Jun Ki, Fahrenheit, DBSK, NewS, Kat-Tun
Type Of Guys: Romantic, sweet, charming,takes care of himself and dress well...