Feeling really depress right now... ever felt the the pain of your heart being trampled on, well that's how I feel right now.

Found out that the world is pretending to be nice to me, took my trust for granted, hide away secrets from me, thinking that I am foolish enough to be made a fool of. People used to just used me and chucked me aside, or avoided me because I was too harsh. I re-gained my courage and changed my ways, got rid of my nasty lips, and started a new. I gave a shot and they were nice, so I reciprocated their kindness. I treated everyone with kindness, tired not to offend anyone around me, tried to avoid at any cost a reason for them to hate me but apparently being nice doesn't help at all. Some thought that I was trying hard to get in the good books, some took me for granted, some stepped on my head, some made me into a joke, and worst of all; some pretended to be my friend so that they can betray me at the end. Never felt so depressed before. Maybe its my fault that I made myself seem like a target for people, but do they not have any conscience? Do they not feel the guilt of having to hurt someone you know for so long, the guilt to know that that person had trusted you all the time, never once doubted you, she shuts away all kinds of suspicion from herself and from the people around her about you. Ever thought about that? I guess not right. Now do you understand the feeling of your heart being trampled on? that's almost similar.

Zul told me that its time i stood up for myself, he said that compared to the old me, I have really mellowed down a lot now, but its hurting me instead. I am sorry for those who agree with me, I promise that I would get better and to those that hates me or took advantage of me, I feel sorry for you because right now, the old Aini is coming back and she is worst than before. Old Aini was blunt, New version of Aini is blunt bitchy and nasty. I've trained hard and will train harder.
(if your conscience is clear then its not about you =D)

If your nice to me, I might be nice to you. So what ever makes you happy.


Life's a bitch and so am I
Aini

Woohoo.... today was super fun and as expected tiring.... when out with aikido members for our festive hari raya outing... Everyone dressed in their festive cloths except leslie... hahah... Eunice came along as well with us... we went to like... 4 houses only... that's a lot huh?...haahaa...

Ouh, i cooked mee siam which everyone finished it all... thank you!! glad you all enjoyed my mum's cooking.... technically, she cooked, me helped... because she won't let me touch anything if she cooks... so i kinda just fry the noodles and add things to the soup... she sort of blend the stuff and tells me to add things...hahah... woke up super early to cook everything... very tired...

Hammy's mum chocolate moist cake was SUPER! delicious and scrumptious!! I ate like 4 pieces of it! Sure to put on weight i tell you!... this ain't good for the body but good for the soul...hahah.... if i get the chance to learn it from her, or eat it once more... i sure will!! hahah....

Reached home like 10plus... i think... so tired but had to clean before bed... mummy and daddy and aina are very angry because mum's kitchen was messy, dad's just angry, aina never got to invite her friends over (that's because she never cleans or cook something for her friends...expect my mum and me to do everything....)... so in aikido language, we say THAT'S LIFE!.... and leslie.... Life's a bitch, embrace it!!

okies... sure to blog soon... if i don't die tomorrow... hehe

Simply Sugarlicious
Aini


Last week was a very busy week because of the F1 job thingy... so kinda had no time to blogged, even if i had the time, i won't even thought of blogging...hahah.... okies... Chef Gary called me a few weeks before and told me that if i wanted to join the F1 catering event. So i took the job and it was the best decision i ever made...hahah.... Eunice and Zi Zhao was in too and a whole lot of the J2 people ( Andy, Yvonne, Ching Ming, Kwang Hui, Lewis, etc...)

Anyways, got to work with 3 chefs from France... they are protege of Joel Robuchon... Apparently he is on of chef khoo's idol...hahah.... Anyways, they 3 chefs are, Chef Axel, Chef Nikos, and Chef Shin... omg they are so handsome and good at their job.... Everyone was so crazy over them (especially the girls from the catering company...LOL).... the most disappointing thing was that i totally screw up on the first day.... Firstly i gave myself a deep cut in my finger which won't stop bleeding.... then i screw up the choux pastry recipe.... then got scolded by chefs.... it was kinda demoralizing... but second day was better because my darling Eunice was there with me in baking... so less screw ups.... i dunno.... maybe with her around i feel less nervous....hahah....
okie, the week was fun and tiring.... exhausting.... excruciatingly painful.... scary encounters with the chefs.... seeing the evil side of chefs... unveiling of the dark working life.... but overall enjoyable...heheh

The week was not bad.... came back home and rested for a day before all my friends started to ask me out...hahah... they apparently lost all form of contact with me for a whole week....hahah.... so went out with the girls, chatted on the phone for hours, went out with leslie and wei kang but Eunice was busy so she could not come....then spent time with family ( which was bad because they made me do a week worth of house chores which i had missed apparently...) and of course my Aikido members.... Really missed them....

Ouh, grading is coming and please wish me luck.... there is free exercise which means you can do anything to your opponent when he is trying to attack you... OMG!! I have slow reflexes and I am sure not to do well in that...so wish me luck...sobx....

So.....
I will try to blog soon...hehe.....
Aini

Simply Aini
Status: Single
Age: 19
Birthday: 10 July 1990
School: Temasek Polytechnic
Diploma: Baking and Culinary Science
Hobby: Photography, Baking, Cooking, Reading, Watching Movies
BOred?: Watching dramas from Korea, Japan, Taiwan and watching Animation
Idols: Matsumoto Jun, Arashi, Lee Jun Ki, Fahrenheit, DBSK, NewS, Kat-Tun
Type Of Guys: Romantic, sweet, charming,takes care of himself and dress well...