Feeling really depress right now... ever felt the the pain of your heart being trampled on, well that's how I feel right now.

Found out that the world is pretending to be nice to me, took my trust for granted, hide away secrets from me, thinking that I am foolish enough to be made a fool of. People used to just used me and chucked me aside, or avoided me because I was too harsh. I re-gained my courage and changed my ways, got rid of my nasty lips, and started a new. I gave a shot and they were nice, so I reciprocated their kindness. I treated everyone with kindness, tired not to offend anyone around me, tried to avoid at any cost a reason for them to hate me but apparently being nice doesn't help at all. Some thought that I was trying hard to get in the good books, some took me for granted, some stepped on my head, some made me into a joke, and worst of all; some pretended to be my friend so that they can betray me at the end. Never felt so depressed before. Maybe its my fault that I made myself seem like a target for people, but do they not have any conscience? Do they not feel the guilt of having to hurt someone you know for so long, the guilt to know that that person had trusted you all the time, never once doubted you, she shuts away all kinds of suspicion from herself and from the people around her about you. Ever thought about that? I guess not right. Now do you understand the feeling of your heart being trampled on? that's almost similar.

Zul told me that its time i stood up for myself, he said that compared to the old me, I have really mellowed down a lot now, but its hurting me instead. I am sorry for those who agree with me, I promise that I would get better and to those that hates me or took advantage of me, I feel sorry for you because right now, the old Aini is coming back and she is worst than before. Old Aini was blunt, New version of Aini is blunt bitchy and nasty. I've trained hard and will train harder.
(if your conscience is clear then its not about you =D)

If your nice to me, I might be nice to you. So what ever makes you happy.


Life's a bitch and so am I
Aini

Simply Aini
Status: Single
Age: 19
Birthday: 10 July 1990
School: Temasek Polytechnic
Diploma: Baking and Culinary Science
Hobby: Photography, Baking, Cooking, Reading, Watching Movies
BOred?: Watching dramas from Korea, Japan, Taiwan and watching Animation
Idols: Matsumoto Jun, Arashi, Lee Jun Ki, Fahrenheit, DBSK, NewS, Kat-Tun
Type Of Guys: Romantic, sweet, charming,takes care of himself and dress well...